Pitfalls of love

Hey diary,

I don't know how long I will be able to hold on to this. This imminent grief lying at the pits of my heart causing immense pain at the thought of the cause. Being 23 is not easy. Being a 23 year old girl is not easy. A cherry on top, being a 23 year old girl in love is far from easy.

Love is a very versatile feeling that can happen any time, any second, any minute. That was a universal myth and is continuing to be until people like us come up and jot down in you what it actually is.

Love is a feeling of happiness when you are supposed to be sad.
Love is a feeling of being right when you are horribly in the wrong.
Love is a feeling of appreciation of a monster disguised in the form of a deity.
Love is the calm before the storm.
Love is everything that is wrong.

They say loving the right person flourishes your love life. But is that love?
Loving a flawless person is so easy because everything is right about them. But every yin has its yang.
Initially, it all looks so beautiful, so charming, so loveable. It leaves a raw smile with a slight bite on your lips.
But as you walk the talk with the person you love, you start finding their flaws.
And that is when your feelings are tested.
Is that love or not?
If you blindly accept their in-built flaws, you are in love.
Else you are not.

But how long can a person acknowledge their lover's folly? How long should they withstand the pain? The pain that is being inflicted upon them?

Being with them gives us pain, being without them gives us pain.

Now you tell me my dear diary, what should I do?

Akankshya Panda